So far, 2018 sucks

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  • February 17, 2018 at 11:19 pm #82848
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    So, my dad passed on Jan 6th. He was 94. Good life, saw it coming, I’m OK.

    At his funeral, a family friend told me another friend’s son Chris died New Year’s Eve. He was 36.

    Two weeks ago, my aunt, my mother’s sister, died at age 96. OK; kind of expected.

    While all that was going on, my Brother-in-Law’s girlfriend / soul-mate Heather had a brain aneurysm. It was bad. After 2 weeks, they did a brain scan and said there was no hope she’d ever be herself again. After a few days of soul searching, the family decided that it would be best to let her go. Three days later, Valentines Day, she passed away. She was 46.

    Going to her celebration of life tomorrow. Stopped and visited my Brother in law toady. He is very sad, but not angry.

    Me, I’m very fucking angry. At all of it. Especially for Chris and Heather.

    Especially for Parkland, and Las Vegas and Sandy Hook, and Columbine and everywhere in between…

    I was raised Catholic and feared their god and their hell when I was a boy, but I’m a grown man now. I’m not stupid enough to say there aren’t things that can’t be explained by mere mortals, but I’m pretty sure the Catholic view of the hereafter has as much chance as being true as my Power ball ticket has at winning me the big one.

    I do believe in an afterlife, and if my choices are singing songs to a god for all eternity in heaven, or playing poker with friends in hell while being tormented by devils, I think I’d choose hell…

    (I kind of believe we are here to learn lessons. If we have to learn more, we come back( and not necissarialy as human, depending on the lesson you need to learn; I’m expecting to be a slime mold or something similar (sea cucumber?) next).

    February 18, 2018 at 12:31 am #82849
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    Hang in there. That’s all I can say…but it’s sincere. Especially sorry to hear about Heather. Yeah bad year so far.

    February 18, 2018 at 7:01 am #82855
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    I wish you and your family a better year going forward.

    I agree it sucks. This year has been awful so far.

    My daughter has had serious anxiety issues and hasn’t been able to work or drive. She lives about an hour from me and I’ve had to keep going up to help get her to various medical appointments. I’ve been busy as they rule out this or that health issue. Then during a bad cold streak her furnace died. Lots of issues there.

    Anyway, my niece’s husband has kidney cancer and isn’t expected to live much longer. He just left his job–which was a great job and I’m not sure how much longer he will continue treatment. He has been battling for a year. He’s not quite 40 and has two younger children. It’s very sad. He’s been to the Mayo clinic and even went to Texas looking for something to help but no luck.

    My wife has been in physical therapy with a bad knee that doesn’t seem to get much better. Not sure if she may have a knee replacement on the horizon.

    I smashed the front of my car in a parking lot against a pole. (First accident I ever had).

    Add in a horrible toothache which required a root canal and a few other things and it has been a miserable year for me so far.

    And of course the national news is horrible.

    I have to avoid it a lot. It’s not worth watching.

    I can’t do anything about it.

    The direction of the country sucks–to put it mildly.

    So yes–2018 REALLY sucks.

    Hopefully things get better for everyone.

    "Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away. " Philip K. Dick

    February 18, 2018 at 9:53 am #82864
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    I got nuthin. And i dunno if we are ‘here to learn something.’

    Allz-i-know, is we should probly try to respect and honor earthly ‘struggle’.
    And create/discover meaning in the ‘struggle.’
    And i think maybe its good to be nice to the ‘beetles’.

    Yes? No?

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    “The greatest mystery is not that we have been flung at random between this profusion of matter and the stars, but that within this prison we can draw from ourselves images powerful enough to deny our nothingness.”
    Les Noyers de l’Altenburg: Andre Malraux
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    “We have not yet encountered any god who is as merciful as a man who flicks a beetle over on its feet.”
    ― Annie Dillard, Pilgrim at Tinker Creek

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